Surprisingly Insightful

While I was growing up, I really wasn’t concerned with my health. I really don’t know why but I think that it may have something to do with the fact that I didn’t relish the thoughts of getting older. But I have found that I’ve been thinking a lot about my health and possibly health issues since turning 40. And I have also been investing in a lot more products that concern my health. I have looked into purchasing progesterone and I have just recently starting taking vitamins again. So I guess it’s better later than never that I started paying attention to my health. And hopefully if I keep up this trend, I will love a long, healthy and natural life.

Today was my appointment for the eye doctors. And surprise surprise I need new eyeglasses. No this didn’t really surprise me as it’s been over three years since I’ve last visited and I could honestly feel a change in my vision. When I work with my tiny, tiny beads I am having a real hard time finding the tiny, tiny holes. So hopefully with a new prescription and a new set of eye wear I will be able to see these tiny holes. I really need to start wearing these things full time and then maybe my next trip to the eye doctors won’t cost me quite so much.

In the past year my oldest brother has lost over 100 lbs. He looks great and claims that he feels great as well. I am very happy for him as the extra weight that he was carrying was starting to affect his health. Now he’s has more energy, his cholesterol and blood pressure are under control and his looks a lot better as well. When I asked him how he lost all this weight, he stated that he used several methods. He joined a gym, went on a strict diet and even tried medication like Phentermine. Of all the methods he used he credits his success to the gym and the diet. Whatever he did, it worked and now I just hope that he can keep all this weight off.

Now that summer is here and the kids aren’t in school any longer, my busy time has begun. During the summer months I spend a lot of time running them from camps to swimming lessons and I don’t always eat the way I should. So during the summer I tend to take a lot more supplements then I do in the winter. Yesterday I bought a bottle of supplements to do me for the summer. But I couldn’t get the ones that I normally purchase so I had to purchase a new kind. When I went to take my first pill this morning, I was amazed at the size of the pill. I honest thought they mixed up some horse supplements in with my supplements. To take one pill, I had to cut it into three pieces. I really hope this pills work, because if they don’t, I’m never buying them again.

So another weekend has come and gone with no camping getting done.  This weekend we were unable to go camping as my husband was sick all week so I couldn’t expect him to head out to the campsite in his condition.  Don’t worry it’s nothing serious.  Just the crappy cold and flue.  But you know yourselves that once you get hit with these illnesses (especially both at the same time), you don’t feel like doing much of anything.

But since it’s just the first  of the season, I don’t feel too bad about not going and hopefully soon we will be able to get our first trip in.  My husband is feeling a bit better today but still not 100% so I guess it’s good that we didn’t travel too far from home.

So for the past 40 years, I have been trying to gain weight.  I’m not kidding.  All my life I have been underweight and I have just as hard of time gaining any extra weight as anyone who is trying to lose it.  Before I went on my “I have to gain weight” crusade, I weighed in at an unhealthy 89 pounds and am five foot one inch tall.  For my height my ideal weight is 110 pounds and I’ve never seen that without being pregnant.

But, the good news is, is that I have now broken the 100 pound mark.  Yeah!!  All I need is 10 more pound to go.  But I know once I hit this landmark, I’m probably going to lose it within a couple of months.  So when I finally hit my mark I then have to find a way to keep it all.

ps.  Just in case your wondering, this post in no way has anything to do with my previous post about my butt being too big. lol  I think my pants just gave up the fight all on their own.

I am so happy to report that my husband is acting like himself again.  He’s not all quiet and moody and he hasn’t been spending all his time off sleeping.  No, he is still not feeling the best.  But he is nothing like he was.  I don’t know if this is why his mood has improved, but trust me I’m not going to question it.

It has been a long month in our house and I’m just happy that things are starting to get back to normal.  I can tell you one thing though.  He has a serious “blow up” at his job and his mood seemed to improve drastically after he did that.  I honestly think that he just needed to get things out in the open.  He has been so afraid of saying anything for fear of losing his job that I think he was holding a lot in.  But it got to the point where he didn’t really care if he lost his job, he had to say what he had to say.  And the good thing was the boss listened and changes are in place.  Because as it turned out, his boss was afraid with my husband’s unhappiness that he would quit.

So, like I said, I’m not real sure what went down in his world, I’m just happy to recognize my husband once again.

My daughter is not real pleased with me today.  A couple of days ago she got a note sent home from school telling all parents that someone in her class has head lice.  So we needed to check the kids heads and make sure that they don’t have it and if they do, do the treatment and report it back to the school.  Thankfully after checking her over, she does  not have it.  But, she has seriously long and thick hair.  I shudder at the thoughts of if she did have it.

The school gave us a suggestion that if the child has long hair (which she does) to make sure it’s pulled back and in a pony tail.  Well I can’t tell you how much she hates wearing a pony tail.  But I insisted!  There is no way I want her getting head lice if I can possibly prevent it.  So off to school she went in a pony tail and let me tell you, she was annoyed.  But I’d rather her be annoyed with me than have to go through the unwelcoming process of trying to get rid of lice in HER hair.

As I’ve posted before, my husband has been going through some sort of “crisis” this past week.  It all started on the day of his birthday and stuff seemed to go downhill from there.  He is not feeling well and I know that this is weighing heavily on his mind right now, but I really think there are other things going on here as well.  So, since he won’t talk to me about what’s happening, yesterday I sat him down and told him how I was feeling.

Well this worked!  By me opening up to him, he then started to open up to me as well.  I found out that there are a lot of things that are on his mind these days and also found out that he didn’t realize that he was treating me and the kids in the way that he was.  So since our talk, he has been in a lot better mood and he is talking more.  I know it’s only been a day since our talk, but things have improved a lot in that time.  So I now have a little bit of hope that things will work out OK.

Well a week ago this past Thursday, my husband turned 41 and it was not a very good day for him.  At first I thought that getting older was bothering him, then I thought maybe it had to do with the fact that it was his first birthday without his mother, but now I think there is something totally different going on.  For the past week he has been a royal bear with no end in site.

Since he refuses to talk to me about anything that is bothering him or going on in his life, I can only guess to his shift in mood.  My guess now is that he is worried about his health.  For the past three weeks he hasn’t been feeling the greatest and yesterday he had some tests run to see if we can discover what the problem is.  So now I’m thinking that his foul mood may have to do with the fact that he is not feeling well and doesn’t know what is wrong with him.

I can guess all that I want, but if he doesn’t talk to me, I’ll never know exactly what is going on.  Oh well I guess the only thing I can do is stand back and wait until he is ready to come to me.