Surprisingly Insightful

I am so happy to report that my husband is acting like himself again.  He’s not all quiet and moody and he hasn’t been spending all his time off sleeping.  No, he is still not feeling the best.  But he is nothing like he was.  I don’t know if this is why his mood has improved, but trust me I’m not going to question it.

It has been a long month in our house and I’m just happy that things are starting to get back to normal.  I can tell you one thing though.  He has a serious “blow up” at his job and his mood seemed to improve drastically after he did that.  I honestly think that he just needed to get things out in the open.  He has been so afraid of saying anything for fear of losing his job that I think he was holding a lot in.  But it got to the point where he didn’t really care if he lost his job, he had to say what he had to say.  And the good thing was the boss listened and changes are in place.  Because as it turned out, his boss was afraid with my husband’s unhappiness that he would quit.

So, like I said, I’m not real sure what went down in his world, I’m just happy to recognize my husband once again.

My daughter is not real pleased with me today.  A couple of days ago she got a note sent home from school telling all parents that someone in her class has head lice.  So we needed to check the kids heads and make sure that they don’t have it and if they do, do the treatment and report it back to the school.  Thankfully after checking her over, she does  not have it.  But, she has seriously long and thick hair.  I shudder at the thoughts of if she did have it.

The school gave us a suggestion that if the child has long hair (which she does) to make sure it’s pulled back and in a pony tail.  Well I can’t tell you how much she hates wearing a pony tail.  But I insisted!  There is no way I want her getting head lice if I can possibly prevent it.  So off to school she went in a pony tail and let me tell you, she was annoyed.  But I’d rather her be annoyed with me than have to go through the unwelcoming process of trying to get rid of lice in HER hair.

As I’ve posted before, my husband has been going through some sort of “crisis” this past week.  It all started on the day of his birthday and stuff seemed to go downhill from there.  He is not feeling well and I know that this is weighing heavily on his mind right now, but I really think there are other things going on here as well.  So, since he won’t talk to me about what’s happening, yesterday I sat him down and told him how I was feeling.

Well this worked!  By me opening up to him, he then started to open up to me as well.  I found out that there are a lot of things that are on his mind these days and also found out that he didn’t realize that he was treating me and the kids in the way that he was.  So since our talk, he has been in a lot better mood and he is talking more.  I know it’s only been a day since our talk, but things have improved a lot in that time.  So I now have a little bit of hope that things will work out OK.

I am honestly addicted to changing my word press themes.  I find I theme that I think I absolutely adore and after looking at it for a couple of weeks (or in the case of this blog, one week) and then I start to not like it any more.  So I go on a hunt for a better looking theme and start to re-arrange and change things.  Well if you’ve been in here before, you will notice that I did it again.  Although the old theme and this one are both about the same color, this one is a little lighter so I think it will be easier to read.

Hopefully after this change I will be satisfied with my decision and I can stop changing my themes for a little while longer.  But, if I know me (and I think I do), it won’t be too much longer before you see a different theme once again. lol

Well a week ago this past Thursday, my husband turned 41 and it was not a very good day for him.  At first I thought that getting older was bothering him, then I thought maybe it had to do with the fact that it was his first birthday without his mother, but now I think there is something totally different going on.  For the past week he has been a royal bear with no end in site.

Since he refuses to talk to me about anything that is bothering him or going on in his life, I can only guess to his shift in mood.  My guess now is that he is worried about his health.  For the past three weeks he hasn’t been feeling the greatest and yesterday he had some tests run to see if we can discover what the problem is.  So now I’m thinking that his foul mood may have to do with the fact that he is not feeling well and doesn’t know what is wrong with him.

I can guess all that I want, but if he doesn’t talk to me, I’ll never know exactly what is going on.  Oh well I guess the only thing I can do is stand back and wait until he is ready to come to me.

Last week my husband and I were discussing our financial situation.  I don’t work outside of the home, so any income I can earn online is the only income that I bring in the house.  He does work full time, so all our bills are getting paid and there is food on the table, but there isn’t a lot left over for the extra stuff that we or the kids would like.

In May I left a job that I had had for almost seven years.  So due to our financial situation right now, I did offer to go back to work.  I really don’t want to and the kids don’t want me to either.  But, if it would help us out I was willing to do it.  Thankfully, after much discussion, we decided that it wouldn’t really pay for me to go back.  If I’m paying out half my paycheck to a babysitter, then really what is the point of working.  So for right now, I’ll stay home and try to earn a little extra online.

Yes, I have come a long way in two years.  Two years ago the only thing I could do with a computer, was turn it on.  I’m not kidding.  I didn’t even know how to cut and paste.  Setting up a website or a blog was completely out of the question.  And now, I can set up high speed Internet cable service and a router.  Yup, you read this post correctly!  That’s why I amaze myself.  I can’t believe that I’m so “techno with it”.

Among the techno stuff that I have picked up along the way, I have also learned a very valuable lesson.  First of all you are NEVER to old to learn new things.  And if you give new adventures half a chance, you can actually have a bit of fun learning.

So, for all you naysayers out there that think you can’t do it, take a page out of my book and get learning!

If I knew then what I know now, I would have done things a whole lot differently about 9 years ago. Nine years ago, we had a baby girl and then two years later almost to the day, we had a baby boy. I always wanted my kids to be close in age as I figured that it would give each child someone to play with and when they grew up they would be close. Well that was great in theory, but I honestly don’t know if I will make it until they grow up to see if they become close.

I have never in my life time seen kids that fight as much as my two do! Never!! Everyday it’s a fight and most times it’s a fight over the stupidest things. I have talked to some friends of mine that have kids around the same age as mine and they all claim that this fighting goes on in their homes as well. Some days I do wish that they were a bit farther in age, but…you can’t change the past now can you?! Well I guess I’ll just have to invest in better ear plugs.